Weight is an issue I’ve had to deal with most of my life.
While I wasn’t largely chubby growing up, I did battle some chub. I wasn’t the
normal sized kid as I usually had a little extra. I wasn’t the “Biggest kid” either,
but there was enough of an issue that often times me, already a beaten down
child, felt even more insecure because I wasn’t “Normal”. It wasn’t until my 20’s that I began to
put on weight. Then in my 30’s I parachuted.
Through the years I would try diet after diet. I lost pound
after pound only to regain and gain extra. One thing most doctors will tell you
is if you lose weight and don’t stick with it, it will come back with extra
baggage. Every time I lost 15 pounds I’d put back on 20. When I lost 50 pounds
I’d put back on 60. It’s like that saying, ‘misery loves company’. So let’s
call the ol’ bitch (WEIGHT) misery. Misery loves to have more misery (more
weight). Why be 10 pounds overweight if you can be 20, right?
I tried various diets; Atkins, South Beach, Phen-phen (I
think one is spelled different) and I only did the Phen diet for a short time
because right after I started the FDA yanked it (Thank God!). I’ve tried
Herbalife, counting calories, no sugar diet, and on and on. I have dieted because
I felt I had to. I’ve dieted even while determined. But the one thing I finally
found, until I found the root of what was going on, until I found peace within myself
and healing, until I found I WAS WORTH IT – PLUS – the determination; nothing
stuck.
I recently made a new friend. I told her why I was eating
and drinking the way I was (she inquired why I didn’t eat and drink at the same
time). I told her I had lost over 100 pounds and that I also had a Sleeve
Gastrectomy surgery. For both trying to eat healthy and any weight loss
surgery, there is a rule of thumb; do not drink just before, during or immediately
after you eat. When you do so, it makes the food mush down and move through
your system much more quickly. This means it dumps out of the tummy and into
the intestinal track quicker leaving you more room in your stomach to fill back
up. So back to meeting this new friend, she also shared she’d recently lost 60
pounds. She shared her diet was a divorce diet. She had realized after several
years of being in a relationship that things had gone awry and now she’s happy.
Now she is able to focus on her and lose the excess weight she had gained over
the years.
So as we continue on this journey, today I hope you’ll take
a look along the paths you’ve crossed in your life. Ponder what the things that
have hurt you are. What are the things that could possibly be holding you back?
Where do you need help and healing? Is
there someone you trust that you can share with? Begin to dig around and find
the roots that need to be uprooted. One thing I can promise you: This process
won’t be easy, but it will come with great reward in the end. We have to rip the bandage off but under it
should be a new layer of skin from the healing the Band-Aid helped provide. If
you find it too painful, find someone to share with, a counselor, a close
friend, family member, pastor, someone. Just make sure it is someone you can
trust. And if it’s still too much,
stop, take a deep breath, put it on the shelf and try it again tomorrow. Let’s
face those things that are holding us back. Never forget the reason is you too
are worth it!
I will continue this journey with my story and words I hope
to help you find a new direction for your journey. Whether you’re looking for
closure to past wounds, weight loss, or both, I truly hope to help and inspire
anyone who needs it.
May your days be gentle and filled with peace, love, and
joy!
Kat
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