Welcome to my journey. With this blog I endeavor to capture my life’s
story in hopes to inspire others. I have a story. I have quite a story. My
story starts from birth, a child neglected, abused, unwanted. A story of pain,
a story of obesity, a story of depression, oppression, and even a story of
shutting down and just trying to die.
I’m writing this blog to capture words, thoughts, memories,
moments not only to inspire through the blog, but to eventually put into a book as
well. I will journal thru this blog some daily events and I will also add
moments from my past. I hope by doing so, by being vulnerable enough to put my
life out there, to be able to inspire others; to be able to help others see
that they are worth it; To help others be able to realize the fight is worth
it; to help others realize they are not alone.
As I write this blog I’ve lost almost 170 lbs to date. I
still have a ways to go but the very first hard point of being vulnerable,
I will admit through all my shame, through all my fears that my starting weight through
this all was almost 500 lbs. My highest most miserable weight, my darkest most
sorrow filled time in my life peaked at 498 lbs.
One thing in my life I have always dealt with was the pain
of always smiling to everyone’s face and no one knowing the tears that flowed
inside. I always had to love others and give my all to others, for others, but
no one knew my real demons. No one knew my real pain. No one read thru my eyes
what was really going on. Sometimes I was angry. Sometimes I hated people
because of this. But really I couldn’t blame anyone but me. If you don’t share,
how can anyone know?
I hope as I write this blog to unfold everything, to be
vulnerable enough so that others can find any piece of my life, my journey to
help them.
Through it all, I have turned in a 180 degree difference of who
I used to be. My journey has healing, weight loss, mind change, mind set, joy,
peace, happiness, confidence, strength, determination and more. YOU TOO can
find all these. YOU TOO should be
worth it! In fact, YOU ARE WORTH IT TOO. I hope through my journey and sharing, you find how you are worth it as well.
I look forward to sharing though it will have times that
will be humiliating and difficult to share (as I already did today). If you
want to gossip about my pains, my vulnerabilities, it’s ok that is your problem
and it won’t hurt me. I want to help those who want to be helped. And that will
be a key thing. Nothing I say or anyone says or does can help you find hope,
help, healing or weight loss until you are ready for that change.
I hope to help encourage and help you find that change.
Please feel free to comment messages if you have questions.
I endeavor to blog often.
Much love and peace be with you all.
Kat
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| My journey from July 2015 - April 30, 2016 |
