My apologies on the delay in posting. I have had a busy couple of weeks. Part of my business was time just for me. I had a training in Seattle so I opted to stay at a hotel (though I'm not all that far from Seattle). But with the work commute it could've taken me about 2 hours each direction. I ended up having me time, something we often forget to do. I spent time with a couple of friends and I spent time alone. I walked beaches and city-scape. I overall just enjoyed slowing down and relaxing.
We tend to be too busy with the hustle and bustle of everyday. We seldom take time to reflect on our health or well being. It's funny how easily we can remember all the bad and negative in our lives and how easily day to day can influence us in a negative way but it's so difficult to remember the good, find the good, or reflect on the good. I once heard Dr. Phil say it takes a thousand atta boy's to undo every one negative (something like that). It's amazing how we have to work so hard to undo the negative. It seems to me working the positive is so much easier.
Recently I posted on my facebook page something that read, "Actually, I just woke up one day and decided that I didn't want to feel like that anymore, or ever again. So I changed. Just like that." And I did . . . . just like that. People want to know what made me change. I just didn't want to be like that any more. Negative things, past, situations, problems, feelings, weight, people, (I can go on and on) ran and ruined my life long enough. In the end though I had to be #1 sick and tired of being sick and tired. #2 willing to accept *I* was the one that stood there with the door opened, allowing the negative to continue to affect me. #3 I had to be willing to change.
Something happens though when you really decide you're ready.Your life takes a turn but for the best. It's not enough to say I want change. You have to have actions accompany those words. You have to be willing to do something you've never done before . . . change. Change isn't always easy but it's worth it.
Since I decided I wanted to change I have had day to day life situations that I've had to face. It's the same as before my change really. The only difference is perspective. I look at life differently. We change our glasses when we change. We get a new prescription for our eyes. How we see things changes as we change how we look at things. You have to see who you are and be honest to yourself. You can lie to others but no matter what you try to tell yourself, you can't lie to you. You know why you're in the situation you're in. Regardless whether it's weight, drugs, alcohol or any other situation, you can't lie to yourself. Regardless of how you got in the situation your in, regardless of who victimized you, how you were a victim, why you made bad choices, why you deal with an addiction; no matter how you got in the situation you're in there comes a time you need to say enough. Forgive yourself if you were the cause for being there. Forgive yourself even if someone else was the cause for you being in the situation your in. Forgive yourself if it wasn't your fault but you failed to fight for you and you allowed yourself to continue to sit there and throw a pity party. You have to get up and say enough. Make the change. No one can do it for you. Draw the proverbial line in the sand and leave the past on the back side of the line. Step over the line and stay looking forward.
I don't want to make it seem like when you're ready and when you make the change life will be a bed of roses. It might be, but roses still have thorns. Some days are so easy for me. Some days are great and amazing! Some days I don't skip a beat on holding my head up high, doing my exercise and or walk. Some days getting enough fluid and water in is on the forefront of my mind. Then there are days where I struggle. I have days where I still have to battle my past. There are days depression wants to sneak in. There's days where I feel defeated. There are days I am tired and sometimes wonder if the fight is worth it. But I never doubt it's worth it. I have to remind myself where I am. I have to remind myself I'm on a life long journey and that this is just a bump in the road. I have to remind myself to keep going that day. Many times it's short lived, hours or a day or two at most; in fact that's the longest I've had to battle the DD disease (Downer Debbie Disease) - YES I named it. In life you don't get to the top without a battle and DD disease is there to try to stop you from making it to the top.
And while there are battles it becomes easier (or at least so far it seems). I saw something earlier today that said "Neurologists claim that every time you resist acting on your anger, you're actually rewiring your brain to be calmer and more loving". I'm not calling the battle anger, but I really believe every time you fight the DD Disease and you step up to whatever you battle, you're reprogramming your mind to win, to defeat the past.
So as I've shared from day one, I had to find my net-worth. You have to also. No one is here to do anything for you. You have to assume you're fighting change alone (and realistically you are). No matter how much anyone is willing to help you or encourage you, eventually they get busy or figure you don't need help any longer. No one knows what is going on inside of you except you.
Today I hope you find reason to fight for you. Don't let DD Disease win another day in your life. If you struggle find your net worth. Always know you're worth it.
Much love and peace to all (And peaches for my dear friend Jewels!)
Kat
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